Regretting my past deeds

Karan stood all alone in the balcony of his posh penthouse on looking the sea. Cold breeze rising from the ocean swept his hair turning them into a mess. But he was least bothered. All he was worrying about was his love, the way he treated her in the past. He genuinely regretted the way he was turning out to be through the course of time. A million of thoughts run past his mind at that moment.

I regret every time I was harsh on you,

I regret every single moment I made you cry,

I was out of control however hard I tried,

To control my frustration because of this life so dry,

I know you love me with all your heart,

But be completely sure my love, I never wanna move apart,

I wanna give you every happiness of this universe,

But don’t know why the conditions are so averse,

Whatever I try to bring a smile on your face,

Starts a whole new cycle of a greater darker phase,

I am broken of failed attempts I make,

I always tried making you proud, steps only in that direction I always take,

Now I challenge the eternal sea of power,

Please listen my prayer, please come a little lower,

I have never demanded much for my own personality,

But didn’t I prayed for her happiness with ardent punctuality,

If you want to give, give punishment to my soul,

Why you are making us both suffer as an entity whole,

The very first day, I took all the sadness on my side,

Because smile of my princess brings an eternal sense of pride…..

He knew he never wanted to make her cry as her cries meant like hard stones rolling on his own heart. He wished he could change all the decisions he had made that brought sorrows to her. He wished he could have been a little soft at her. He knew all that she demanded was a little time and attention from him. But in the blindness and greed of money, he forgot many important things in his life. He forgot how he yearned for genuine love from the very childhood. Being brought up in an orphanage, he wished someone would be there to care for her. With time he found Ayesha, it appeared he got the world in itself. Her love was the anchor of his strength but as he got into a mad race towards success, he run past many important people and important events that had always made her happy. In the blindness of success and power he ignored love and care which he yearned from the core of his heart. The particular incident that took Ayesha away today made her realize how bad he was at judging and setting priorities throughout his life……….

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